In this episode, I discuss being misunderstood as an empath and visionary, and about meditation: are you doing it to be a superhuman better ego or to realize your true self beyond ego?
I share a few stories about not being understood as a visionary. Being a visionary means you see into the future and others don’t have the same vision. I ask you to ask yourself: do I need support and understanding? Asking close ones to support and understand is an expectation and it is their choice whether they want to understand or not. If you have that need for support and understanding, seek groups that can help you to understand, explore and compare your gift with others.
I speak about being an empath and how there was no such thing at the time, when I was aware and picking up on people’s “stuff” at the tender age of 3. Conscious parents, friends, teachers, etc. were not available growing up and I was alone with my mystical experiences.
I mention what others, such as Mooji and eckharttolle.com/Eckart Tolle, two enlightened beings, have said about those on the path of self-discovery: that it seems some are interested in adorning their ego, in having a nicer ego than the present one, and are more interested in the egoic game of being a somebody special (e.g. a spiritual teacher, a healer, etc.), or are more interested in the gifts that come with spiritual awakening. Gifts may be there before meditation, and I have met many who had gifts but were unaware of how they worked. I have met some who have abused their gifts, made money with their gifts and done the “I’m so special I have super powers” attitude, only to have their gifts being taken away from them.
The question to ask is, are you more interested in the game of playing with qi, special abilities, healing people, being a superhuman, etc, or are you interested in awakening to your true self? I mention that I had this “gift” since I was young that I called "knowing without knowing." I had an awareness, knew things about people, but I never asked about it. I never wanted to “learn” more or manipulate it, go to esoteric schools and learn about developing my “intuitive gifts.” It was something that was there and if it came good, if not, that too was good. For myself, my calling is to awaken to my true being, not to be attached to special abilities. They are not special, they are given as gifts as Life itself is a gift, and we can enjoy them as they are part of the play of human experience.
I mention an experience on FB (soon/now Meta) about a person who had a spiritual organization but did not meditate. If you don’t look at yourself and your programs, then your organization is another institution, another mode of knowledge. Sages talk about “unlearning,” “de-programming,” and “de-conditioning.” It was a valid point, as this person had asked the community whether “spiritual teachers” offering programs, courses, etc. had their “shit together.” It is plainly obvious: if you are not enlightened, the answer is no. Ego is ego; you are either enlightened or not. Like being pregnant. There is not a little or a lot, it is yes or no. Those offering spirituality in various ways are at various stages of their awakening process, unless they have had their awakening experience, as with Eckart Tolle, Mooji and Sadhguru.
I speak plainly that I don’t have my shit together, and that enlightened beings don’t use those words---they talk about transcending mind and ego. I mention the difference between being confident and being authentic. Being confident is a mind or ego trip; being authentic arises out of presence. It is the reason many are attracted to people such as the Dalai Lama, Mooji, Eckart Tolle and many others, because they show up as their authentic selves, and speak from an authentic place called presence.